ISFAT I have BPD and it's so very, very frustrating.
Depressing.
Anger is the only thing I know any more.
I can't handle the peer pressure to be normal when it's just something I can't do.
It's like I can only communicate by drawing things on my own skin..and I'm not even good at that. (don't ask, it's my preferred canvas to paper)
Music is escape..but there's never enough..
I'm addicted to the arts, but I can't conjure my own.
Impulsive behaviour is THE most annoying thing I've ever had to deal with.
And I can't change. I've been afraid of change forever and nothing's different.. Psychotic, I know..but I can't get out.

go learn how to draw real good, buy books on the subject.

practise always makes u that much betta
u just have to keep at it

smile ashfish. BPD is difficult to handle, but it can be overcome. Somehow release your anger in a positive way (like art like you kind of are doing) or by playing a team sport. you can win the battle!